Date Night

I've been thinking about last weekend… nonstop, really. It's getting harder and harder for me to rank my best weekend ever… a problem I'm perfectly happy to have.

Of course I miss you now… so, so much. It's stupid. But it makes perfect sense.

The more of you I get, the more of you I want. Need. And it is never, could never be enough. We could spend every single moment with each other starting tomorrow, for the rest of our lives, and it wouldn't be anywhere near enough…

But last weekend.

Your event was amazing. My event was amazing. As far as I can tell, they both went off without a hitch, or very nearly so. Fun times with fantastic friends. There's precious little I would change about either of those evenings.

I'm sorry I missed out on the DQ, but other than that… perfect, both nights.

I've been thinking a lot, about them both.

But mine…

If you boiled it down… so that it was down to you, and it was down to me…

It would have been an incredible date night.

Can you see it?

Just the two of us, taking in that movie we both love so well… I know we both laughed at the same places… I heard your chuckle from time to time, sigh. But would you have found yourself shocked at just how misty eyed you got at the beginning, like I did? Would you feel the powerful tug of the underlying story pulling at your heart throughout?

Would sharing that experience with me deepen your love, as it did to me? Did it, even as it was?

Then getting to escort you down the stairs and to dinner… a vision of beauty walking there beside me… Talking, laughing… Would our hands find each other, clasped together until we reached the restaurant?

And dinner… just… to share a meal with you… To sit and talk and stare at you in awe… How do I deserve this? How did I end up here, sitting angled to beauty personified? How did I get so very lucky that I'm allowed to engage with the incredible mind that peers out from those astonishing eyes?

sigh

Then finally wandering into that arcade, sharing beers… which games would we have played together, unhindered by the others?

(though… getting to crowd in together at the TMNT machine was… 🥰 I am always so hyperaware of your presence… and you were right… there… right beside me… god, so, so very close… sigh)

But, no.

I wouldn't change a thing. I'm not so selfish as to want to rob our friends of their own fantastic memories of the evening…

But… as a prototype… a model. For when we can.

Well, the idea of topping that movie selection is… inconceivable. But still… when we can…

I'm pretty sure I'll know just how to make a date night you won't forget. I can't wait to try.

Yours, in the truest of true loves.